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Monday, June 30, 2014

Falling in Love


My family likes to remind me often that I’m single. I’m used to it by now and it doesn’t bother me in the slightest. There is nothing wrong with being single, especially when you’re waiting for that special someone to meet your standards.

            I’m a complicated female, and like I often say, I’m not your typical girl. My favorite accessory is my old baseball cap, but if I have a reason to, I don’t mind putting makeup on and doing my hair every now and then. 
Even my uncle pointed out a few weeks ago when I was wearing a dress that I look more comfortable in jeans and boots. He said I even look prettier in barn clothes because it’s the natural me.

But something I share with other girls is the fairytale dream of falling in love and living a happily ever after. I’m still looking for the right man to open my heart to and fall in love with. I’m optimistically saying I know he’s out there too.
If I’ve learned anything over the years, it’s that true love is rare and hard to come by.


I love when guys ask me a thousand meaningless questions just because they want to get to know me.
I’ll tell you that my favorite color is black (the shade that shines rainbow), and I despise coffee in all forms (even iced with lots of cream and sugar). I know you can pick my laugh out in a crowd but I love to laugh. If you can always have me smiling, that’s when I’m happiest.
Sometimes I just want to be held, but other times I don’t want to cuddle because I want my space. When you fall in love with me, you’ll figure out the difference. Kiss me in public, that’s okay, but be warned, I can’t stand PDA. I’m not a trophy girlfriend. I don’t play that game. I’m not yours to make exes or your friends jealous, I’m going to be yours because I care for you and if you love me you’ll feel the same.
I’m terrified to fall in love. Show me why being afraid is such a mistake. Don’t hurt me. If you love me you won’t. Love isn’t about getting even or getting revenge. It isn’t about always owing your partner something; it’s about making that person your world and treating them like they’re a priority in your life.
Everyone has flaws. If a person truly loves you though, they’ll see past those flaws. I hope a guy will fall in love with my sarcastic sense of humor, my bruised and scarred legs, my terrible eyesight, and my unpredictable moods.
Maybe my heart is holding out for love because I’m truly waiting to find the right man worth giving it to – the one I want to wake up next to and fall asleep dreaming about.

I also am a girl in the sense that I am a bit of a romantic. I like goodnight and good morning texts or out of the blue calls to know that I’m on your mind. Prove to me I’m important to you. Don’t ask me how you should prove it because that’s half the challenge in figuring it out on your own. I want to know I’m cared for and mean something to you and I’m not wasting my time if you’re not serious. I’m not looking for someone perfect, but I’m looking for someone who will have serious conversations with me and be silly two minutes later. 

What I have to wonder though is how long I have to wait? Because I’m not the type of girl to sit around waiting forever. I get scared waiting because too many times before, waiting meant that you had a better option and I was going to be kept at bay. If you love me, you won’t give another man a chance to make me happy because you’ll be fighting for me.



Every girl deserves a guy who can make her forget her heart was ever broken. I know I can’t promise a man a perfect relationship, because I’d be lying and I hate to break my promises. But I do promise that as long as he gives it his all, so will I.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Lyrics to Life



            Everyone loves music. I may be making a very broad generalization there, but I’m sure everyone has his or her own form of some sort of music, sound, or beat he or she enjoys listening to.

            When I’m in the car, personally, it’s rare that my dial strays from the country station. And if it does, it’s probably switching to a country CD just because I don’t like what’s on one of the five country stations I switch between. I have my moments though where I listen to other things, I think everyone does that and truly does like a little bit of everything.


            They say that lyrics describe a person’s life. The lyrics to your favorite song are probably something you can relate to.

            For the times I like to relax and maybe fall asleep I love lullaby music or soothing Spanish guitar music.

            When I’m angry. No scratch that. When I’m downright pissed I blast Ke$ha. She’s my girl. Her crazy music and no bullshit attitude I love and admire.

            Sometimes I throw it back to ‘70s and ‘80s music. I have my parents to thank for that one.

            If I’m going out or getting ready to go somewhere I like to listen to EDM/techno/house/dubstep whatever else you want to call it that’s fast-paced and upbeat to get myself ready to have fun.

            Occasionally I like to relive my childhood with some late ‘90s jams.

            And starting November 1st clear through Christmas I only listen to Christmas carols, that is all.


            It took me forever to write this blog because I wanted to compile a list of my top 10 favorite songs and why I love them and relate to them. These are the songs that when they come on my iPhone I have to hit replay.

            Here goes:


10. Hurricane – Dustin Lynch

A country song about a girl, very cliché, I know.
This song reminds me of myself though. I have a problem with settling down, and when I do meet a guy I have a tendency to leave distraction in my path like a hurricane. Fitting that it even talks about the girl having red hair and being a wild child.
“Cause it’s a hell of a ride, if you can just survive the pain, that’s the thing about a hurricane.”
A hurricane is something amazing to witness yet scary as hell, same as falling in love. And at the end when the hurricane has blown through the only thing people can do is pick up the pieces and what’s left and move on, exactly what Dustin Lynch says is the only way to deal with this girl.
The song also talks about the girl running from her past, again something I do, and in the song she even warns the guy the trouble she is, which is what I always say I am.


9. Sweet Caroline – Neil Diamond

There is something about this song that never fails to make me smile. A song most people like to belt out, commonly while holding a beer or having their arms around their friends while swaying in time to the music.
“Good times never seemed so good (Go Pitt, Go Pitt, Go Pitt).”
This song means something to me because it’s always played during the Pitt football games and I will forever be a Panther at heart.
It’s just a feel good song that makes me happy and makes me want to grab my friends and dance like idiots.
Above all though it’s a beautiful love song about a man being madly in love with his girl. What can I say? I’m a sucker for love songs.


8. Born This Way – Lady Gaga

This is a girl’s anthem and feel good song for women.
“I’m beautiful in my way cause God makes no mistakes, I’m on the right track, baby I was born this way.”
It’s about embracing your inner beauty and being proud of who you are. Don’t ever be afraid to be yourself because if people can’t accept you for who you are they don’t deserve to be in your life.
Whenever I’m feeling down or having a bad day I like to listen to this song because it’s empowering and a good reminder that being true to you is what matters. You never have to prove anything to anyone, only yourself. You have to love yourself first too before you can love anyone else.


7. Landslide – Fleetwood Mac

This song reminds me of growing up and the pain and excitement that come with it. It’s especially relevant to my life because I left for college and I’m trying to figure out where my life after college is going to take me.
“But time makes you bolder, even children get older, and I’m getting older too.”
It’s scary to face the world by yourself because your parents aren’t always going to be there to help you, but that’s also half the fun of it.


6. Automatic- Miranda Lambert

I wish I could have grown up in a different era. Granted, I’m so thankful for the technology we have today and all the strides we continue to make, but I also miss the good ‘ol days. I remember payphones, and I still dry my laundry on the clothesline on a nice day. I love making sun tea, and I remember when my grandpa used a pocket watch.
“It all just seemed so good the way we had it, back before everything became automatic.”
Some people will never realize the beauty of simplicity and the old-fashioned way because they’re stuck on what they think the beauty is in technology.


5. Jack & Diane – John Cougar Mellencamp

Oops, sorry for another love song. This is probably my favorite song to turn up the entire way and roll the windows down.
To me this is pretty self-explanatory. It’s two kids, living the American dream and who fall in love.
“Hold on to sixteen as long as you can, changes come around real soon make us women and men.”
Kids are always in such a rush to grow up, I know I was. But when you’re a kid you don’t realize how amazing it is to be carefree. Cherish that and make it last as long as you can. You’re going to grow up eventually and not be able to enjoy the freedom you once had.


4. Hey Pretty Girl – Kip Moore

The first time I heard this song I about wanted to cry. (And that’s really strange coming from me because I’m basically heartless). It still warms my heart and makes me daydream when I hear it because this is the type of man I want to find in my life. I want a man who’s going to love me this much and try to win me over.
It also makes me happy because it’s not a song about a hookup or one night stand, it’s about making a relationship work the right way. Dancing, being together, taking her home to meet his mom, building a life together, etc.
“Life’s a long and winding ride, better have the right one by your side.”
I’m still looking for that right one, but I hope when I find him I can compare our relationship to this song because I could see this being the first song we dance to at our wedding. If a guy ever sang this to me too I’d probably melt, just saying.


3. Don’t Stop Believing – Journey

You are lying if you have never blasted this song and sang along at the top of your lungs.
I am a small town girl, living in my own lonely world. And to me this song is about going on a journey and trying to find yourself. It’s optimistic and the title itself even tells you to not give up hope, to keep pushing, because with determination you will get where you want to and accomplish your goal. 
“Some will win, some will lose.”
Unfortunately you can’t win every single time and you need to learn how to accept defeat once in awhile.
This song is also about familiarity and the fact that everyone has common ground. Shadows, are in reference to the people’s past that haunts them. It also is about everyone feeling sad or lonely sometimes and realizing that other people share those feelings too and they truly aren’t ever alone in their pain.
Finally, it makes me think of love. It’s about a boy and girl from two separate worlds figuring out they really aren’t that different, and battling the odds to be together and fall in love.


2. Small Town U.S.A. – Justin Moore

A perfect description of my hometown. I live in the cliché small town that everyone seems to hate, but no one seems to leave. And if they do leave, it’s usually not too long before they come back. Everybody knows everybody’s business, and gossip is inescapable. You can’t even get away with anything because somehow word will eventually get back to your parents, and secrets aren’t possible to keep.      
We may not be the richest people in the world, but where I come from it’s hard work that’s going to get you much farther in life.
“I wouldn’t trade one single day, I’m proud to say I love this place.”
As much as I complain about lacking in culture and having to drive two hours to shop, I love western Pennsylvania and the backwoods. If I don’t raise my children in Brockway I’ll raise them in a town similar to it because I want them to enjoy the same childhood I did.


1. Here For A Good Time – George Strait

Well I might as well start off by saying George Strait is my love. I love this man and all of his music so of course one of his songs was going to be on the Top 10 playlist of my life. The only problem was trying to pick one, but once I really got thinking about some of my favorite songs by him this one stuck out.
Right from the beginning he says he isn’t going to take life for granted. Even when life sucks, this song reminds me that I should be blessed that I’m still living and I have the opportunities that I do.
“Every day I wake up knowing it could be my last.”
Because you never know when your time is going to come, give it your all every day. He even says to take a chance because you never know what tomorrow will bring.



            I’m guilty of listening to the radio and saying “I love this song” or “this is my jam” to half of the songs that play. But when it comes down to it, these are the ten songs that best represent me.